I'm feeling pensive today. My head is calm, but also not. I feel as if I'm standing still and quiet for the first time and it's a beautiful thing. I feel like I'm a hundred feet tall and the clouds are swirling around my ears. They make their own rorschach test just for me, and every image is happy and sane.

Today I caught up with old friends. I didn't realize how much I missed them until now.

In Humanities, we're studying Oedipus Rex, which might be one of my favorite talky plays of all time (Next to A Lion in Winter). We got on the topic of fate vs. free will and what Sophocles was trying to tell the Greek society.
It quickly dissolved into a heated debate (as these things tend to do). I don't remember everything that was said, but the two sided argument basically divided like this:
Fate: No matter what you do to try and change it, you'll end up at the same result
Free Will: You consciously decide which paths to take and you get where your decisions take you.

What I took from it was that you will get to a certain point in your life which can be defined as the pinnacle. You'll be there. You won't know exactly how it happened, but there you are. You can argue that fate brought you there or that you brought yourself there. But the important thing is that you made it, not why or how you got there.

Sophocles was trying to make the people think for themselves. He succeeded.

“The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.” -Buddha

“What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now.” -Unknown